Looking in the mirror naked gives me a boner sometimes.
Damn I love narcissism. Or I guess the euphemism would be rational egoism.
I love myself, I'm always happy, and I couldn't give a s*** what others think. There's literally no downfall here! Yay!

Why are girls only confident and sexy when they're already in a relationship? I find them way, way more fun to hang out with than single girls who always put up this shy, hard-to-get act, which is just f***ing annoying.

Goddammit, I've been homewrecking so much I don't know what it's like to flirt with a single girl anymore… And before you start flaming me for hooking up with girls in relationships, they're always the ones who chase me. I just wanted to have female friends who are secure in who they are and not try-hards, and all I get are these huge messes.

I can't even hang out with an entire organization anymore because every time I go to their meetings all their goddamn girlfriends hit on me with their boyfriends there. It's flattering, but for f*** sake I can't make friends without there being an ulterior motive anymore. Now all I do is just study, eat, sleep, and work out. Bleh. Summer needs to get here faster.

Also, yes, I have guy friends. The problem is they're all graduating this year because I can't hang out with guys my own age. There are too many ego clashes.

THESE PAPERS ARE MAKIN ME CRAAAAAAAZYYYY. 15 more pages to write after this paper, goddddakldjf;akl.

On the plus side I get to see one of my best friends and go to a gay club with her next friday. Should be interesting.. I finally get to dance without girls who suck at dancing tryin to grind up on me wooo

Goddammit. My professor is terrible. I'm at a university and yet my professor so obviously used Google twenty minutes before class to give us a commentary on a film we were about to watch. What the f***. She turned a fantastic sociopolitical commentary on the nature of Communism in swallowing up local cultures and spitting out more Red propaganda into some f***ing bulls*** story about celebrating the awesomeness of the rural communities.

How the f*** do you mess that up? The only way is to have misread a review on Google by some a****** who didn't even watch the movie but just read a quick synopsis on imdb which rarely, IF EVER, contain the subtle connotations of a movie, ESPECIALLY one that had to operate under heavy censorship when it was released. Goddammit. Why am I even going to this university. I should just move to LA now and start working in the mailroom now so I don't waste anymore time with film theory bulls***.

Listlessness, apathy. hopefully the therapist diagnoses it as depression and not just angst. feels like depression though, there must be some sort of chemical imbalance in my brain else i wouldnt constantly feel this way.. i dont want to go on antidepressants though, they just blot out your emotions even more.. sigh. its too bad i dont believe in an afterlife or id have killed myself already